back in action

I wonder if anyone still visit this blog after my 2 week break, but anyway.

I am back from Japan. My purpose of visit was to go and see my grandmother now that she is climbing the stairway to heaven. (and it's not convincing when i say this, because it looks like i was in hawaii instead, but i did visit her like 5-6 times, although the distance!)

people get surprised to my lack of.... sorrow or compassion about the subject, but what can i do. if my grandmother would get better by crying over than i'll cry till i can fill a bucket, but that is not the case.

instead, i took her out from her bed, so she can feel the summer breeze. she couldn't support her own head so i had to prop her up all the way, but she seemed to enjoy the outside, which she was deprived of for such a long time.

if we're lucky she may be able to walk again, shortly before she dies (according to the doctor).