"no more space for new messages"

I have this thing.
(no, this is not going to be me confessing my mental disturbia so rest assured)

I cannot seem to delete my inbox messages from my sms inbox in my old nokia phone, so it always gets full,
stopping new messages to come in.

It just feels like... the "proof" or "marks" of friends would dissappear, and the next moment i delete it,
it will evade my mind, and my inbox will stay empty (hell, it has been always empty, but these few months, its been full)

I do realise that the normal thing to think is to just accept the fact that friends come and go,
and delete the inbox all-at-once so it dosen't interfere with incoming messages.

But i can't.
you know, i am thankful i never had a girlfriend because i would like, keep her photos and stuff,
and i would start repressing my memory or try to lobotomise myself due to sheer abhorrance of that clingy me,
and whiny me.

(change of mood)

ho hum. (deletes inbox)
i guess i just did it.
Right.
Something in me just died, but its what happens everyday.
instead, i should be greatful that i can realise there were still things alive in me.
(which i've just killed)
i guess this is how we "grow up".
I can't be peter-pan.

(reading back, i seem pretty sick in the head, but i can always go see jason chow.)