Trust issues

After having written a diary entry for 3 days in a row (it's a feat!), I have come to realize that making a new habit is also about how much you can keep your own promise.

and this is important because, making and keeping a promise we made to ourselves will determine how much we can trust ourselves.

We can only trust someone else as much as we can trust ourselves.

I used to think that having expectations on people will only bring disappointment, and likewise, I should not expect so much from myself, either.

But I guess it has come to a point where I need to actually think about learning how to trust myself, which is slightly different from expecting myself to act in a certain way. Maybe "Trust" means to have confidence in someone, but at the same time being prepared to forgive the person when your expectation (you cannot NOT have one) is not met.

When, then, is it okay to not meet an expectation?

maybe it is acceptable to break a promise when you cannot help it. say I have a meeting to attend, but I get in an accident. That may be forgivable than me waking up late.

same thing can be said with trust. as long as we try out best and we know we did, we won't betray our trust upon ourselves...

and by "doing our best" all the time to try and meet our own promise, we may be able to be a better (or change into whatever we aspire to be) person.

I have been rather lazy my whole life, not trusting myself but somehow drifting though (somewhat successfully).

It is time to change into something a bit more firm. a man with a principle... but first, I should learn how to trust myself.

I plan to do this by making promises to myself, keep them, and continue doing it.