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its been ages since i last updated this place.

quite a lot have happened this month.

i've had my exams, on the 20th (I think... was it?)
*checks*

no it was on the 10th. this is how all that medicine screw up my circadian and calenderaly rhythm. (which i had

so yes. we had this Year-end exam called EOS, its kind of like an exam IMU students dread, talk about in their sleep, get psychological hyperventilation, attempt to kill themselves, and get PTSD from.

...actually, it wasn't so bad for me because i have the knack for convincing myself that the reality is not as bad as it really is.

the reason for all these panic prior to EOS is because;

of the amount of things we have to study.

if i were to stack all the notes i'd have to read, understand and memorize, it would be around 10.5cm (i actually stacked them up and checked.)

and if i were to take any referance book, it is bigger than a bible and could be used as a potential weapon in case some armed robbery happens in your house, or a bullet-proof shield.

of the consequences.

when we fail EOS2, we get to re-sit. if we fail that, we either get to retake semester 2, retake semester 1 AND 2, or get kicked out. this depends on the INTERVIEW which is more like an interrogation by several university big-shots.

of sheer peer pressure.

you go to university on a saturday (in my case i had some sporting event going on) you will see your friends, all your friends, studying.

and its not just a usual studying either. they're studying in pin-drop-silence with their noses touching their notes. it is a scary sight. it makes you guilty not to study. it makes you feel that you might just die if you don't do the same.

people stay in the library, from 8a.m till 8p.m. then they go home and study. its pretty hardcore.

so people naturally get quite stressed.

i think i'm the only one who was relaxed enough to take super-naps (which is like, a 5 hour nap) during exam period. although i study from 10p.m till 6a.m after that, then sleep 30 mins to get ready for the next day.

so you can imagine how our results day would look like.

we talk about the nightmares we had (i actually had a dream about results, but it was like "Everyone passed! yayyyyy!" kind so i just kept quiet) and there were rumours spreading like wildfire that over 60 people failed this time round.

now, 60 people over 250 failing might not really sound like a lot, but it is really difficult to imagine ANYONE less academically able than you in IMU. because simply everyone works hard, and everyone just so happens to be an all-A student in their collage.

I got a B- in the end, but i felt happy like never before in my life. but after that i had several nightmares about people who has to re-take... (coming back to the point why we dread EOS - so much workload that you can literally place all those notes on you and kill yourself while at sleep)

nowadays im sort of living a free life since its my first long holiday, till January. wheee.