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I actually study nowadays.

i mean, to be honest, i've never been able to sit down quietly in a quiet library and quietly take mental notes while quietly scribble down important points onto a little notebook.

but now i do.

its funny how the condition of the surroundings could affect a human being.


the library is a scary place. i almost pissed myself when i saw books 10 times as thick as the greatest hit fantasy book in the world (bible) and saw the content.
everything i see in the library is unforeseen, including the loud silence and the loud presence of people who are radiating out a disturbing amount of "Study Aura".


its just sort of scary that i can be conditioned to study.
I used to think i was mentally incapable of doing so.



i need to go pick up my A-level results but i cannot be bothered.